I quit writing. For the past two months, I haven't really written (which is saying a lot for someone who wrote daily). My friends on Facebook know that I pulled all of my stories off of the internet and speculated writing under a different name. Why?
Well, when you have a convoluted past, sometimes it can sneak up on you again. I have a great family now, but that wasn't always the case. My biological father was (and, unfortunately, still is) a monster. So, when he was let out of prison and his brother decided to visit my author page, I panicked. I'd not seen or heard their names for years, and there was a lot of anxiety that went with that. It wasn't so much because I was afraid of them but because writing is sacred to me. It is my happy place, and I don't invite them to that place. I didn't want to write knowing that someone that made my guts wrench was trying to read what I wrote. I felt invaded in the most intimate place I owned. I tore all of my stories off the internet and even considered renaming and redesigning all of their covers under new names.
But, the new name just felt so fake. I couldn't, so I just stopped writing altogether. I let them win. But, like their influence on my life, it was a short period of time. It didn't take me long to come to my senses and realize that I am me, and I have to write under my real name regardless. I don't want to be anyone else. I just want to be me. I'm going to write what I want despite them, because I love my characters and stories.
Sometimes, a pause is necessary in life. What matters is that you press play again. So, here's a reintroduction. Hi, my name is Crystal Cherie, and I am going to write for as long as I am going to breathe (no matter who reads). Off and on, my words will come, because there is some sort of supernatural release in the penning of characters and stories that epitomize the human heart and all of its strengths and weaknesses. I will continue to escape into my stories so that others can, too.
Thanks for continuing to read and support my love affair with words. ♥
My books and website will be published again shortly.